my trust issues are deteriorating so many relationships with people. i’ve mended one with one of my best friends recently, which im glad + learned a lot from, but im still pulling stuff that makes me not act like myself and it’s scary and makes me feel like i’m losing control. i like who i am, when im confident, which ive had happen this year, but its easy to fall back into self hatred when you’re acting like someone you’re not. im gonna try to pick my shit back up, i feel like it might be too late in some regards, ive kind of fucked myself over multiple times, but better late than never. it sucks because people always say it’s the other persons fault if they can’t see how amazing you are, etc, but thats just really irresponsible. i almost lost one of my best friends because of trust and self acceptance issues i had. shes not without fault, but these issues are ones that almost have and definitely can fuck up really, really, important and beneficial relationships i have with others.